girls just wanna have fun :)

Damn. I miss you guys so much. We had so much fun last year masa Diane balik cuti. Keeeemak ouh ! Hesh can I fast forward masa ? Ingat lagi masa duduk rumah Diane. The first time tu memang gila-gila takda transport..nak gerak sana sini pun susah. Dah la dua2 kaki jalan. Nasib baik aunty kau balik kampung so we had the car all by ourselves !! Yeay !! Jadual hari-hari mesti sama....

Pagi, tidur sampai petang.

Petang siap2 nak kuar.

Malam, kuar sampai pagi. Orang nak sahur baru kita balik.

Mekap bagai nak rak macam nak pergi clubbing padahal lepak mamak sebelah umah je. Dengan terdedah sana sini. Bak kata abg sewa kereta.. "Kalau jmp Diana tu, mesti mcm tak cukup kain. Pakai baju kebaya pun sama je abg tgk"... hahahaha.... Aku confirm banyak gila fashion mistake kita buat kan Yen ? Kadang2 cam jinjang sgt pun ade. Hahahaha... Mampos lah orang nak kata over the top sgt ke tak. (Kau igt tak masa lepak mamak mane entah yang kita jumpa this one guy artist pakai baju melayu purple. Fizzow I think nama dia. And we were like flirting main2 mata dgn dia cause he was checking US out. *taknak jugak ckp dia usha KAU je..hahhaha....and then Raja Farah dtg...* sumpah weh dia macam nenek gile malam tu )..

Damn I miss those days. Then zaman aku jadi penetap JB pulak. Macam2 seyh happen kat JB. Aku and Anis kena samun lah. Tu moment paling fucked up. Sampai ke sahur kitorang kat balai buat report. Haih lahh. Hari-hari aku dgn Anis ponteng puasa. Selamba je pegi beli McD, yang si Pacak tggu dalam kereta. HAHAHA. Pegi karok ramai2, pegi The Zone jumpa TMJ...and dalam byk2 kali aku pegi JB, skali je dapat jmp Amal...asallah kau jauh sgt ke Segamat makcik oii ?

Then, korang igt tak masa wedding abg Anis ? Hahaha. Time Diane baru2 je sampai Malaysia..terus shoot gi JB sama-sama. Entah ape hal lah aunty Anis tu nak jaki sangat dgn kau Diane...haha. Nak pergi smoke pun kena bawak kete pusing2 satu taman..masing2 sorok2 sap kok. Empat2 ekor ni kaki smoking...haha. Yang si Amal tak habis2 nak condemn aku. Ada je benda dia tak puas hati. Kau memang kan setan ????? Suka cari pasal dgn aku. hahaha. Tapi aku tetap sayang kau jugak...huhu.

After balik from JB, aku datang lagi lepak umah Diane. Everyday siang malam dengan minah ni sampai dah muak. Selalu gak argue dengan dia. And yang paling embrassing, kita gaduh teruk gila belakang kereta Qayyum otw balik from MOS cause of some stupid stuff. Sumpah that was the ugliest fight I had with you. HAHAHA. Everyday sewa kereta nak pegi jalan2 punya pasal. Everyweek wooooza !! Yes that was my favourite part of all. Hahahaha. Gila babi tak pergi kelas langsung sem tu. Dok enjoy dengan korang je...haha. But it was all worth it. Spending some valuable time with my hunny bunnies....nothing can top that. Dengan duit pun semput2 je...macam biasa lah, payung each other kann ? Even selalu sengkek pun, but we were so damn happy cause we had each other. I miss all that korang. I miss you guys sangat2.

Diane cepat lah balik ! Make sure this year kau balik jugak k. And tolong lah jangan time bulan puasa lagi. Semput weh aku nak ganti puasa sebulan !!! HAHAHAHA....

ngeng.

family always come first

Didi cakap konsep die ....

1) family
2) kawan-kawan
3) kekasih


He's right. That is why I love my family. Gaduh-gaduh tu normal lah. Sedangkan lidah sendiri pun boleh tergigit kannn ?



Dapur kat rumah rosak. Something wrong tapi taktau sebab apa. Nak kata gas habis, dah tukar pun still tak boleh on. So dah berapa hari ni beli lauk luar je. I was damn hungry just now so I called my Along asking if dia balik for lunch cause nak dia bungkuskan sekali for me. But dia tak balik so she called my other sister, Farah to buy some nasi bungkus for me. That was 12pm just now. Farah was sleeping and woke up at 2. Bila nak pergi jumpa Along kat HUKM, Farah called her cakap dah otw...then I can hear ALong marah Farah on the phone cause dah dua jam lepas tu baru nak gerak pegi beli food.


"Kau baru nak pegi beli makanan ke Farah ? Dah dua jam adik tunggu tu. Kau buat apa Along suruh pegi tadi ? Kebulur dah adik tu tau tak ? "


I laughed. And was so touched by her concernity. Yes I was damn hungry tapi aku sendiri pun tak kesah... Hahahaha. So sweet lah Along. Risau yea Ija tak lunch lagi ? Huhu. I love you lahh Along.




You see, even little things can touch my heart.

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one step back.

Today my family is having a family dinner to celebrate Along's birthday and my dad's promotion. He is invited. And I've informed him days ago... and he said "tengoklah dulu"....
And today is the day, but then no one is saying a word to anyone. Not to the fact that our relationship is on the rocks now, but then I think, it is still too early. I don't want to repeat the same mistake I did with my ex before. Meeting the parents is a big step. It can bring different meaning. It's time for me to face reality. Yeah we can plan about the future. "Lagi berapa tahun mahu nikah ? Tunang nak berapa tahun ? Nak kahwin kat mana ? Nak duduk mana ? Kerja apa ? Anak nak berapa orang ? " Plan lah macam macam. But the reality is that, kalau takde jodoh, tak kemana jugak.....


So I'm taking things slow. After what had happened, I almost lose him. Or I almost walk away... My dreams would be shattered. All the things I berangan with him would vanished just like that. And plus, I don't think he would want to meet my family now either. Our relationship lately is as cold as ice. We're giving each other time to recover from what had happened. And I'm telling you, I miss us so much. fucking much...


Ramai orang cakap, "babe, you are still too young for commitments" .... First I thought, that is all I ever wanted. To settle down fast and have a normal happy family lifestyle. But then as reality checks in, I realise, maybe they are right. Banyak benda terbentang depan mata yang belum aku terokai. I should live my life to the fullest. An it would have been nice if I can do all that with you by my side. So, I'm replanning my lifetime plan again. There's a lot of construction needed. I'm trying to be strong now. No more blood and tears.

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A.I

I realised, being an emotionally fragile only makes me weak. Drama just can't get enough of me. I've been through shits and hard times. I think of little things too much and I end up getting myself hurt. It is just so silly. One day, maybe 10 years from now, I will laugh at myself knowing how lame I can be sometimes. Beyond stupidity. I had enough. So I'm trying to turn over a new leaf. A new person who I can rely on - myself. I'll try not to need anything from anyone, even if it's affection. I let my emotions instead of my mind get all over me. I don't wanna be weak anymore. I don't want people to see me as a weak person. I've learned a few things or two and I'll definitely will keep them in mind.

Hello world, this is Alaina Ibrahim :)

*finger crossed

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Good things are yet to come.. i hope.

He texted me while I was on my way back home to K.L. Though I dont trust him, but I think he was sincere. Tears were running down my face. Ouhh how I wish I can stop things from happened. And how I wish we can be like before. Only better...


As usual..I have to wait.. hmmmm :(

ngeng.

si terlebih emosi

Sumpah sebak tengok Adamaya... first time tengok. Even tak follow every episode, still, the ones yg aku sempat tgk betul betul menyentuh hati. Patutlah dulu dia sebok sangat nak balik awal taknak miss Adamaya. Haih lahh..

Masih ada ke orang yang macam Adam ? Itu lelaki yang layak digelar suami. Mana boleh aku dapatkan orang macam tu ? Masih wujudkah ? Ohh, lupa. Tu kan dari cerita drama T.V.... khayalan semata-mata. Kalau lah perlu berada dalam khayalan utk dapat lelaki yang bergelar suami begitu, aku sanggup tak berpijak di bumi yang nyata sampai bila-bila.

Haih Phye, bersyukur dengan apa yang kau ada. Kau tak nampak lagi...mungkin kau terlalu meragui...

Aku bukan apa...aku takut utk mempercayai..aku paling takut, sakit !

ngeng.

God has a plan for me.

All my life - or every other girl's life , all we want is someone we can look up to.
Someone that we adore so much.
Someone we can call "sayang"
Someone we know will be there for us through ups and downs.
Someone we feel secure with.
Someone who can protect us from any harm.
Someone that we can call... " my hero "



I used to have one. One that is really it. Until I let him slipped away.




Ada orang pernah cakap kat aku.. ex-girlfriend dia pernah cakap kat dia masa dorang break...

" mungkin Tuhan tarik saya ni sebab nak bagi awak yang lagi baik "


*mulianya kau merendahkan diri. Aku kagum.


Tapi aku tertanya, Tuhan tarik dia utk bagi aku yang lagi baik kah ? Ohh tidak. Aku yang lepaskan dia utk cari yang lagi baik. Persoalannya, berjayakah aku ? Itu, hanya Tuhan yang tahu. Aku bukan orang baik utk dapat yang baik. Tapi aku juga bukan orang jahat utk terima kejahatan. Evenso, I have no regrets. Satu konklusi yang aku belajar dari sketsa kehidupan ini - Yang lepas tiada guna penyesalan, bersyukur dengan apa yang ada sekarang. And you are God's creation for me sayang.



God has a plan for all of us. And I'm sure, He only wants what's the best for His servants.

ngeng.