Tuesday, December 29, 2009

Why my mom is the best mom in the world.




Faudziah binti Kamil a.k.a Kak Gee a.k.a Umi. Why she is a supermom.



My mom is a perfectionist. So can you imagine living under one roof with a perfectionist? Sometimes yeah, you feel like a total mess when everything isn't good enough. But at one point, you will realise that your life is well donely organised.







Education is very important in my family. To my mom especially. She'll force us to study, makes sure our homeworks completed, feed us good food, the house is clean so that we can live in a proper environment and lecture us all the time. Kalau ada tetamu nak datang je, tak kesah laa our friends or cousins, rumah mesti nak kena kemas macam esok dah nak raya. Semua mesti clear!! Sampai en bilik aku tu pon kalau tak tukar cadar ke ape en, mesti kena marah. Toiletrist mesti tukar yang baru padahal yang lama tak habis pon lagi. I remember masa Form 2, Itek plan nak tidur umah aku since kat rumah dia takde orang. So it was the first time kawan STF nak datang tidur rumah. Umi sampai belikan towel baru and karpet Minis the Pooh colour pink yang baru letak kat bilik aku. Bukan nak kata excited, tapi mmg my mom cani. She wants the best impression she can give.










Herm. The most memorable moments I had with my mom is during my exams. ( I have this weakness when my every big moments or big exams, I can't be alone. I just can't. Or else I'll freak out. I need someone I love to be there and support me. My mom usually is that person :))) During PTS (during my time PTS still ada)..ingat lagi. Umi amek cuti datang sekolah duduk kat surau while aku tengah jawab exam. Then time recess umi teman aku makan kat kantin. Dia bawak bekal untuk aku and aku makan ramai2 dgn dia and my friends. Dah macam cite PAPADOM pon ade. Tapi aku tak kesah. Infact I was damn happy my mom came. Anese Yusmira, my friend masa tu sangat terharu tgk umi aku sanggup datang teman aku jawab exam. Then, aku terpilih utk the next PTS exam. Pagi pagi before nak pergi jawab, umi masak lauk favourite aku and suapkan aku dgn tangan dia sendiri. Masa tu kat luar rumah aku dah siap pakai kasut sekolah sume. Umi sangat prihatin bile exam, tak boleh makan pedas2. Takut nnt time exam sakit perut. So usually, one week before any big exam, umi akan masak yang mostly sup or steamed food.











I made her happy when I passed my PTS exam. ;))











Then UPSR. Umi datang sekolah lagi. Duduk kat surau, buat solat hajat utk aku so dat aku blh jawab dgn tenang. On the day result UPSR keluar, umi amek cuti lagi. But I told her not to come cause aku nak try face my big moments by myself. But then, a few minutes after annoucement suruh berkumpul kat Laman Bestari, aku jadi kecut. So aku call umi mintak dia datang. I sAid these exact words " umi tolong datang. Ija ingat Ija boleh buat sorang tapi tak boleh. Ija tgk mak Alia datang, Ija nak umi ade jugak." I almost cried. Luckily, my mom came on time. And she cried when my name was announced to get 5A'S :)) I made her proud.











PMR. Masa ni aku belajar kat STF. Which is in JB!! This time aku dah macam a bit risau lah. Cause of course aku kena do it alone this time. I mean takkan lah nak suruh umi datang 300km++ all the way from K.L enn? Kesian lah umi. But my mom is a supermom. She proved to me that nothing is impossible. That weekend before PMR, umi and ayah datang JB tgk aku. Memang masa dah nak dekat exam, parents aku mmg rajin datang to make sure that I'm okay and to support me. Dorang datang same2, balik pon same2. But that weekend was different because hanya ayah sahaja yang balik K.L. Umi stay JB, dudk kat sickbay sekolah for 2 nights and 3 days hanya utk aku!!! Setiap malam aku tidur dgn umi. Aku tidur awal cause umi suruh utk elak mengantuk nak jawab paper nnt. Pagi2 aku bgn tgk umi dah sediakan baju sekolah utk aku. Dia siap beli kan aku 2 pasang baju sekolah baru lg tu!! Then before nak masuk hall, umi teman aku. Dia pegang dahi aku, pastu baca lah ayat ayat sikit bg aku terang hati jawab paper. And she did the same thing to some of my friends. Aku jawab paper, umi sembahyang hajat and baca Quran for me kat sickbay. Kawan kawan aku semua kelakar tgk umi. But they liked it. Some even asked umi to doakan utk dorang gak. Maybe if kalau korang akan rasa malu kalau mak korang mcm tu. But not me. Aku suka. Not only she was there for me. But also for my friends. Niat umi baik. Bukan nak memalukan anak dia.








Masa result PMR keluar, aku just call sekolah. Malas haa nak pergi jauh2. So at that time ada aku, my twins cousins, and my dad kat rumah. Aku call sekolah and berkat doa umi aku, I score 8A's. Umi kat ofis tgh keje. So she called ayah tny how was my result. Ayah tipu umi cakap I onlt got 6A's tapi aku tak sampai hati dgr suara umi cam dah frust, so I told her the truth. Tak sempat aku nak explain pape umi dah nanges gila babi!!! Her officemate sume igt ada org meninggal!! HAHA.

















SPM!!! Urgh! Aku cakap kat umi, this time takpe. I can do it alone. Yelaa aku taknak nyusahkan umi lagi. Kesian dia. But then umi datang jugak. Duduk lagi kat sickbay. I remember my English teacher, Miss Raha jumpa aku and she said I'm lucky to have her as my mom. I know miss. I know. But I'm sorry umi. Aku kecundang this time. I only got 6A's 4B's. I'm sorry mom I didn't make you proud like how I did before. I guess my teen hormone just can't keep up anymore. I told my dad that I want to repeat my SPM cause I know I can do better. But my dad said, let it go and move on. I wish...I really wish..i did not get involve in things I should not be involved. Herm..











Why my mom is the best mom in the world? Cause she loves me that much! Now, every weekends aku balik, mesti akan ada banyak buah umi beli utk aku. Sebab aku ni hantu buah. So sape2 yang nak date dgn aku, please don't buy flowers cause I don't appreciate them. And no chocolates too!! Cause then I'll get fatter than ever. Just buy me fruits okay?? Mostly yang local punya. TQ!!








Ada this one time, masa tu cuti sekolah seminggu lebih. I don't remember masa form bape. But masa tu kat rumah. Pagi tu umi tak masak breakfast so dia beli kat luar je. Dia tny nak mkn apa aku ckp nak roti canai. Tapi dia terlupa so she bought me smthg else. Then I said to her," esok nak roti canai ea? Ija teringin." But terlupa lagi. Sampai lah aku dah nak balik STF balik, baru umi teringat. Then aku cakap takpelah. Nnt Ija cuti lagi blh makan. (Kat STF celah mana nak carik roti canai enn?) Tapi umi tak sedap hati dia nak jugak aku makan roti canai before naik bas. Padahal bas dah nak gerak lagi 15 minit..kitorang berlari ke mamak across Pudu tu. Aku dah cakap takpe, nanti nanti blh makan tapi umi nak jugak aku makan. Dia kata bg lah sedap hati dia. Herm..umi umi.











Banyak lagi sbenarnya moment yang buat aku terharu sgt dgn umi. Tapi kang kalau cite semua mmg penuh lah blog aku ni. Korang pon dah tak larat nak baca kang.








Umi, I know I haven't been a good daughter lately. I have no excuse and I won't defend myslef cause I know I am guilty. I just wanna say I'm sorry and will always try to improve myself and be the person you always hope I'll be. Umi, you are the greatest mother anyone would have. And I thank you for that.











Ija igt lagi umi penah cakap bila Ija kata umi ni time tak sihat pon nak bebel lagi. Umi cakap "biarlah umi nak bebel pon. Utk kebaikan Ija jugak. Nanti umi dah mati Ija tak dgr suara umi lagi."...Don't say that mom!! Don't ever leave before I do! Cause I won't survive without you!











People, appreciate lah satu satu nya bnd yang korang ada kat dunia ni. Friends and boyfriends come and go. But family stays forever. Kawan boleh dicari, boyfriend blh diganti. Tapi mak and ayah, sekali hilang takkan kembali. Kita ada satu je mak ayah. Kalau korang jenos yang ada konflik dgn parents, rasa cam parents korang tak anggap korang anak, anggap lah tu cara dorang nak ajar korang utk survive kat dunia ni. Lain orang lain cara. Aku pon bkan baik sgt. Selalu gak melawan umi ayah. But I always try to control and improve myself. So let us all do the same k?














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Saturday, December 26, 2009

Goodbye 2009.

Another 3 days is new year. So long 2009, hello 2010. Can't believe I'm 20 already. Urgh! Feel so old!!





2009 taught me a lot. A lot about everything in life. Family, friendship, relations. Huh. It's the most fucked up year ever in my life so far but then I learned something from it. I learned a lot actually. 2009 had made me become a human being > or worse than that. I wasn't sure what was suppose to be my priority. I was made belief that Apa was my priority. I was wrong. I knew now that myself is my priority actually.





I don't wanna talk much about my 2009. Cause I really don't like flashbacks. Makes me feel so stupid. I really hope my 2010 is gonna be a lot better than the years I had before. I haven't thought of anything yet about what's my resolution. I'll think of something. I hope so.





I was thinking about getting my life back on track. But then I realised..on what track??? My life was never really normal or on any track there is. Herm. I'm sure I'll come up with something.











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Friday, December 25, 2009

Nothing.

I look into his eyes.... Nothing.
I smiled.... Nothing.
We kissed.... Nothing.
He holds my hand..... Nothing.
He hugs me.... Nothing.
He kissed my cheek.... Nothing.
He tug me into bed.... Nothing.


Nothing. Empty. Dark. Silent.
Yes. I fake everything. Yesterday was nothing.

1O months but nothing??


Maybe I'm just tired. And confused.



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Masa depan berkeluarga

Ustazah Isfadiah bercerita kat kelas.
Kalau nak tahu macam mana seorang lelaki itu dengan isterinya, tgk pada hubungan dia dgn Ibu nya.
Kalau nak tahu macam mana hubungan seorang lelaki itu dengan orang luar, tgk pada hubungan dia dengan bapa nya.
Kalau nak tahu macam mana hubungan seorang lelaki itu dengan anak-anak nya, tgk pada hubungan dia dengan adik beradik nya.


Kalau nak tahu macam mana hubungan seorang perempuan dengan suami nya, tgk pada hubungan dia dengan ayah nya.
Kalau nak tahu macam mana hubungan seorang perempuan dengan orang luar, tgk pada hubungan dia dengan ibu nya.
Kalau nak tahu macam mana hubungan seorang perempuan dengan anak anak nya, tgk pada hubungan dia dengan adik beradik nya.


I came from a good family background. Though we have different thoughts and different agenda, but when it comes to family, we are as one. And aku yang spoilbratt dlm family. So..bakal suamiku, anda tahu anda bakal isteri anda macam mana yea?


Herm. Aku suka orang yang pandai bahagi masa dengan family, kawan-kawan dan urusan luar.



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Tuesday, December 22, 2009

To a girl whose name starts with the alphabet "N"

Girl, you don't have to hide anything from me. Seriously. I know everything. Maybe not from his own words but I know. Cause I'm not stupid. Have you ever heard the sayings "action speaks louder than words"? The more you guys deny it, the more I know that it is true. I have nothing agaisnt you. Honestly. I am just not ready to meet or to hang out with you yet. It's not that I hate you. No!! I don't hate you and I don't want you to hate me too. I'm a nice person. It's just that things are moving so fast that it keeps me off track. I can't keep up to things that I'm not 100% ready yet. Maybe to you it is all nothing but to me, it is everything. You used to be the "IT" girl for him. You used to be his everything. And I was there when it all happens. I told him what to do, what to say to you. I was there when he felt as if you are not around anymore. So I know how things were before. I know how much you meant to him before. If you were me, how would you react if you are asked to meet "you"? I wasn't ready. You are not a competition. You are a mate. So I don't wanna see you or treat you as if you are my competition. Things will get ugly. I am not mad. I'm just dissapointed. Don't treat me as if I can't handle the truth. It might be tough at first but I'll get the point. I'm not a child. Dont't treat me like one. It's fine to me that you guys are still friends. I have nothing agaisnt your friendship. I understand. But when you guys hide it, deny it, that what makes me feel so furious. He has to know his priorities. I'll be lying if I say i don't mind you guys still calling each other "syg" or "yg"..yeah it do kills me sometimes. But then what more can I do? I just hope that you guys can respect the relationship him and I are having. I know you can. You are a girl like me. We girls understand each others feelings aite? Him and I are still not rigid. We are still fragile. I'm sure when we are solid, everything would be fine between you and me girl..in the mean time..I hope you understand. I really don't wanna see you as a barrier in our relationship. So please don't be. And seriously, you don't have to hide anything from me. I know.




love from me,
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Thursday, December 17, 2009

Bebelan nak period.

Adeh. My pinggang is cramping. My boobs hurting. Early signs of period pain. OMG! No! Not again. Sometimes I feel like I rather monopause early than having to bare period pain every month. Taking the meds for period pain tak elok for your maternity. Tapi mmg tak blh nak tahan. Bape kali dah penah pengsan sbb period pain. Herm.


Along is going to Kemaman tonight. Kapal Abg Pul stop jap kat perlabuhan Kemaman. So dia nak gi jmp lah. Along bawak lappy and broadband dia. Which means aku tak online sampai lah dia balik. Tomorrow or Saturday dia sampai umah. Takpelah. Takde lappy senang sikit nak study. Less distraction to focus. Kalai tak kang nak online je keje. Herm. Midterm after holiday ni. Wish me luck people. Even it's just midterm, I still want to score. Durrh. Education is very important! Taknak jadi bimbo. Harap muka lawa (lawa ke?HAHA)tapi takde pendidikan. Kerja pon tak. Jap ada jap jobless. Nanti kat resume pon tak lawa. Hee. [Pompuan zaman sekarang tak boleh nak harap pada lelaki je. Suma dah pandai berdikari. Tgk kat IPTA and IPTS pon, girls lagi ramai than the boys. So girls out there yang rasa nya tengah tak study, or malas nak study, or extend ke ape, better cepat2 habis en study. Then get good jobs with great salaries. Aku ni pon bukan educated sgt. That's why I always find ways to improve myself while I still can. ;DD





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Wednesday, December 16, 2009

WMB parade.

It's the end of the year. The WMB (World Marching Band) was having a parade infront the Pavilion. Mcna texted me if I wanted to join her, Mamak and Hehey as they are going. I was at first cam malas actually but then dah lama tak jumpa my crazy friends ni and I bet it's going to be fun hanging out with them, so I go lah. Yelah enn.. kate pon crazy friends. So dah boleh imagine akan jadi betapa kecoh nya nnt. It's been ages since I had fun with my STF friends. HAHA. That thing start malam. Supposely start at 6 but sbb hujan so tertunda sampai pukul 9.

Okay so around 5.30 I made a move to KLCC to meet them there. Only Mcna was there when I arrived. Lepak lah jap catching up with her after so long dah tak jumpa. Then Hehey and Mamak sampai so off we go to Pavilion. And guess what??? OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG!!! Masa kat Pavi, otw nak keluar kat entrance...suddenly..OMG OMG OMG OMG!! I saw suadara A and a couple of his friends tengah masuk Pavi!!!! The minute I saw him I was like....Haahhhh!! Kesian haa Hehey kena tahan pukulan dan gegetan dari aku sbb tak tahan sgt nampak saudara A! Okay I know it will sound so lame sbb minat sama saudara A tu enn but who cares??? I really like his voice and his songs!! He's the only Malay male artist that I really really really like. Dapat dia sumpah tak cari lain!! Huhu. (sori boo..hehe) I was like nuts sampai nak ikot dia haa jadi stalker. Nasib baik ada my friends yang menenangkan hati jap. HAHA.


So, tak berjaya nak stalk saudara A, kitorang pon kuar lepak jap. Bapak ramai orang. Sesak gile. Rupa-rupa nya they all are waiting for the fake snow to come out. Sampai countdown 10 lagi. Haih. Yelahh. It's almost Christmas enn. At that time teringat kat Diane. Kat sana ada real snow. Sini fake snow yang made up from soap bubbles je. Tapi aku rasa kau lebih rela dgn fake snow kat sini den da real one kat sana en en yen? HAHA. So..the parade starts at 9. Kitorang pon dok menepek kat tepi jalan. Adoyhai bapak sesak haa. Dengan orang dok potong potong line kitorang. Sume nak ke depan. Tengah tengah tension tu..tibe tibe nampak saudara A lagi!!! I was like WTF WTF WTF??? Rupa rupanya dia perform that night! Bapak aih. Aku tgk dia perform live depan mata aku haa!! OMG OMG! If dapat snap one clear picture of him en best!! Buat wallpaper tross! HEHE.


Masa tengah parade pulak..SIGS band lalu plakk. Hehey dengan semangat nya meng boo dorang. Memang loud and clear. SIGS lalu betol betol depan kitorang pulakk. Memang dengar sangat lahh. Haha. Padan muka. Sure down gila spirit dorang nak perform time tu. Dengan Hehey and Mcna dok promote STF band nya haa kuat kuat. Memang sumpah cakap, that night, suara kitorang paling kuat. Kecoh gila babi. Dah tak pikir kemaluan diri dah time tu (haa?)..memang balun terjerit jerit. Malu ke tak malu ke, mampos lahh. I had fun that night. Real fun. Gelak gelak, jerit jerit sampai sakit tekak nak hilang suara. Haha. Here are some photos for you guys. :))





Enjoying the fake snow yang tak berapa nak best pon.
Ni masa dah habis parade. Lecun gila baju. Ketiak banjir tros!!
Peluh gila.
Aksi wajib. Depan cermin toilet! HAHA.
Fav pic! But my boobs look a bit besar enn? I just love push up bra. HAHA.
Kitorang ada fake snow je kat Malaysia ni Diane..huhu.
Band from Indon.
Ada tarian sikit as opening. Tarian 1 Malaysia enn.
Can you see the fake snow?
I like this thing depan Pavi.
Hehey and Mcna.
Mamak and Phye.
Candid. Time ni after terserempak dgn saudara A!!
Still in KLCC. Pakai cardigan lg time ni. HAHA.

Last photo.








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Monday, December 14, 2009

My only reason why I go back home every week.











He is growing up. To be a good son, a good person. And I want to be there, to witness him learning how to survive in this harsh, cold and unfair world. I know, deep in my heart, that he will make it through any obstacles in life. I love you to death.
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Sunday, December 13, 2009

Umi kata aku pakai tudung nampak sweet! Hehe

Haa. This trip, the melodrama hatiku had planned for a while. We are all going to Akma's sister wedding at dot dot dot. Initially, there were supposed to be 6 or more of us but then, last minute, Dayang and Wan cancelled. So only me,Jowi, Akma n Poyea. We rent a car. Memang tak expect the car to be lawa pon. But taknak lah yg begitu teruk sampai 3 kali kena stop tepi jalan sbb temperature naek. Rupanya penutup ape bnd ntah longgar daa. Itu pasal air dok kuar je. Herm. The journey was damn tiring. But it was fun. And spending it with my friends, makes it more worthwhile. Malas nak type panjang couse gambar pon dah byk gile. Ni pon dah cut cut sikit sbb byk sgt haa. Bila dgn org yang camera whore cam Jowi and Akma, mmg akan ada byk collection lah enn. Haha. So let the pictures do the talking.






Di pagi yang amat terik before nak gerak. Time ni kat UIA lagi. Ni lah our rent car tu. Kata Akma dah mcm kete Poyea kat Kelantan haa. HAHA.
Berhenti tepi jap coz kete buat hal. Aku bukak tudung jap haa. Panas gile kot.
Camera whore.
Aku suke gile gambar ni. Putih melepak jugak aku ni enn? HAHA.
Me and Jowi. Can't stop taking pictures.
Dah sampai ke lokasi, makan teruss!
Aku dah lapar malas nak posing bergambar dah. MAKAN dulu!! haha.
Okay aku terase hot plak kat tgh tgh tu enn. Hehe.
Aku pakai tudung haa. Kang mak Akma pelik pulak. Kata kawan UIA tp tudung terbang. Terpaksa la jd hipokrit jap. Huhu.
Sape paling hot???? JUJUR!!!!
Dah takde idea nak posing cane lg. HAHA.
Poyea dgn Akma mula mula duduk jauh haa nak cover dgn bapak Akma.
Sekali kau...haa!! Berkepit haa duduk! Takde nak cover cover dah. HAHA.
The four of us. Rugi yang lain takde. Even penat but the journey waas fun.
Tengok haa aku jadi mangsa utk cover en dua ekor ni.
Anak anak dara Melayu terakhir. Hehe.



Bajet nak candid.



Asek kitorang je enn?
Gaya seorang Jowi.
Comel haa aku ni. Umi aku yang cakap!!
Gaya Akma nak goda Poyea. hehe.

Dah macam adik beradik enn? Only I'm cuter. Hehe.

Akma, hati hati!! Jowi dah senyum senyum tu dok tepi Poyea! HAha.


Kan aku dah cakap. Adeh Jowi...hehe.



Umi kate aku sweet pakai tudung. Nanti Ija pakai betol betol k umi?

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Friday, December 11, 2009

Iktibar malam ini.

Tempat: Gym UIA.
Masa: 10++
Tarikh: 10 Nov 2009
Aktiviti: Study for paper IRK
Individu: Akma, Dayang and me.


>ringtone Gossip Girl

Akma: Huuhh!! Takot nye weh! >tunjuk hndphone dia kat Dayang. Terdiam. Then pass kat aku.

Kandungan sms: Cyg..org nak gi kdai ni tau. Ada accindent. Kepala dia berkecai..takot.

Terdiam.


Masa: 11pm

Announcement : Salam pada warga Ummu Salamah. Ini berita terbaru. Seorang mak guard kita baru sahaja meninggal dunia. Marilah kita sama-sama sedekah kan Al-Fatihah untuk beliau.

Terdiam.


Habis je study dgn Akma and Dayang, aku balik bilik. Otw tu, nampak ramai sangat kat pondok guard. Aku cam terpikir jap kaitan msg Pokyea tadi dengan announcement. Jangan cakap mak guard tu accident kat depan blok aku ni?? Aku cepat2 pegi kat tempat orang ramai yang tengah dok campak2 kain batik dari atas. Rupa rupa nya, accident tu happen kat depan blok kolej Murni yang sebaris dengan blok B. Makguard tu tengah naik motor otw nak masuk syif die. Lampu baru je tukar hijau. Dia nak buat U turn den suddenly ada TRELER dari arah bertentangan yang tengah kejar lampu langgar makcik guard. Treler tu tros blahh tak berhenti. Orang ramai yang nampak nak pergi tgk mangsa tapi tak dapat nak cam siapa sebab kepala dia dah hancur berkecai hanya tinggal badan. Student yang ada di tempat kejadian pegi panggil pak guard and bile bukak sweater mangsa pakai baju uniform guard UIA and ada nametag tertulis Sharifah. Dari situ mereka dah tahu. Sangat ngeri. Treler tu teros pergi ke balai polis untuk report kejadian. Yelah if die turun, for sure kena belasah dgn org ramai en. Benda salah dia langgar nak sangat kejar lampu even dah tukar merah. Ada sorang ni upload enn gambar mangsa kat Facebook. Aku baru tgk td through Facebook Akma. Aku rase tak ptt budak tu upload en gambar. Mengaibkan. Apalah perasaan anak-anak arwah if dorang dapat tau gambar arwah mak dorang dipapar kan dalam keadaan macam tu. Sangat ngeri. Helmet pecah dua dengan is isi otak masih ade dalam nya.


Semalam aku punya takut terbangun pukul 4 tak boleh tidur teros stay up sampai pukul 6 lebih. Nasib baik Apa and Anese tak tido lagi teman aku. Pukul 6 lebih orang bangun nak solat Subuh. Lepas aku solat je aku teros tido balik.


Mati. Bila-bila boleh berlaku. Pada sape-sape tak kira dimana kita berada. Anda sudah bersedia menghadapai mati?? Aku belum. Takut bila pikirkan mati. Amal ibadat aku masih belum cukup. Banyak dosa aku. Ya Allah ya Tuhanku, Kau panjangkanlah umur ku, umur kedua ibu bapa ku, kakak-kakak dan abangku, saudara-mara serta rakan-rakan ku. Kau berkatilah hidup kami Ya Allah. Amin.


Aku tak sampai hati nak pos kan gambar accident tu. Terlalu teruk. Aku takut tak dapat tidur lagi malam ni. Herm. Korang.bawak motor and kereta elok-elok kay? Kadang kadang even kita bawak cermat pon, tapi sb kecuaian org lain, kita yang jd mangsa. So always be careful okay.



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Apology accepted.

Azfar Zahin anak Amzah. Okay aku maafkan kau. Sebab kau datang UIA esoknya teman aku study, aku rasa enn agak terharu disitu. Hehe. Dah lepas ni jgn buat lagi oke.



p/s: Haa tau pon takot bini. HAHA



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Kawan anda yang paling pandai?
Diana Fariha Arshad. Sebab minah ni maen je keje. Enjoy all the time tapi score all the time. Nak tak score pon sipi2 jela. To me she's a genius laa enn. Maen pon boleh score. (dah cam lagu Jet plak haa)

Kawan anda yang paling hot?
Aku nak cakap aku boleh takk? HAHA.

Kawan anda yang paling bergaya?
Airin Yusmira. Macam dia yang datin haa. Kalah mama dia. Hehe.

Kawan anda yang paling bising?
Anis Nadhirah Razizad!! Sekali dia jerit cair taik telinga daa!

Kawan anda yang paling merimaskan?
Uiit. Haha. Biarlah rahsia.

Kawan anda yang paling kecoh?
Farah Ediana!! Kau mulut mmg tak reti nak diam!! Hyper je 24 jam! HAHA

Kawan anda yang paling pemurah?
For sure bukan Mcna sbb dia yang paling kedekot! HAHA. Herm..Nana jiran aku!!

Kawan anda yang paling setia?
Entah laa. Sume pon penah backstabb. Aku pon sama!! HAHA.

Kawan anda yang paling baik hati?
Jowi anak Jais! Bapak baik minah ni dowh. Rajin je gerak untk kawan2. Cam takde mslh je hidup die.

Kawan anda yang paling cute?
Dayang! Yelah aku bg gak cute kat kau! Amek. haha

Kawan anda yang paling gila-gila?
Haa ni aku cakap MCNA!!! haha. Mmg otak biol!! HAHA

Kawan anda yang paling mengada?
Akma!! Hehe. Tapi dalam erti yg positif laa enn. HAHA.

Kawan anda yang paling happy go lucky?
K.nana senior UIA aku. Even dia ade masalah pon, tapi stl boleh tersenyum.

Kawan anda yang paling kelakar?
Herm. Ramai dowh. Wan, Mcna, Kechik, Shah.

Kawan anda yang paling rock?
Syira Sykes! HAHA

Kawan anda yang paling blurr?
Deerawani!!!! HAHA. Sumpah kau mmg blurr gile kdg2! HAHA

Kawan anda yang paling sensitif?
Akmal Ali!! Tapi takdela sensitif mane pon. Suke majok ngan aku je.

Kawan anda yang paling bersaing dengan anda?
HOHO!! *****!! (Anese Diane and Amal tahu sape ni. HAHA)

Kawan anda yang pernah anda jatuh cinta?
Errk?? Penah ke haa? Ntah aku pon tak egt.

Kawan anda yang paling anda cemburui?
Herm sape ehh? Takde kot. Sume pon saa je cam aku haa. HAHA.

Kawan anda yang paling anda sayang?
Diane, Anese, Amal, Dayang, Akma, Jowi, Syira.

Kawan anda yang sehidup semati?
Diane, Anese, Amal.

Kawan yang anda ingin tag?
Diane
Anese
Dayang
Jowi
Akma
Mcna
Mdy
k.Qila
Deerawani
Airin
AND SEMUA YANG BACE BLOG AKU AND YANG ADA KAT TEPI LIST BLOG AKU NI HAA.



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Monday, December 7, 2009

Kau lelaki ke?

I don't understand why. It has become clear now. You feel inferior of me.
You won't let me go far. Always want me in your sight. Can never let me go far.
I'll never let you bring me down.


Kalau kau merasakan kelakian kau tercabar dgn kemajuan aku, kau bukan lelaki!
Kau pengecut! Kau tak bisa melihat kejayaan aku lebih dari kau.
Kau sekat aku. Kau sekat kejayaan aku. Kau tercabar dgn aku.
KENAPA?


Kau teman aku. Tapi lagak kau macam lawan aku!
Kau kekasih aku. Tapi cemburu kau macam musuh aku!
Kau kepercayaan aku. Tapi gaya kau macam penikam aku!
Tolonglah. Kalau kau rasa kau tak boleh nak sokong aku, tak boleh tak kacau bilau kan hidop aku tiap kali exam, tolong blah dr hidup aku!! Aku tak perlukan orang macam kau.
Pantang tgk aku lebih sikit dari kau tapi sendiri tak ade usaha nak lebihkan diri.
Jangan mengaku kau lelaki kalau kau takot kalah dgn aku!
Aku perempuan sikit pon tak tunduk pada ego kau!
Kau nak jatuhkan aku? Nyah kau dr hidop aku.
Aku tak perlukan orang macam kau!
Azfar Zahin anak Amzah. Selalu nak cara mudah. Berubahlah. Aku bukan boneka yang kau gerakkan sendiri untuk sujud pada kemahuan dan ego kau. Dengan aku, kau boleh pusing belakang dan jalan kalau mcm itu cara yg kau mahu. Pergilah berlari pada ibu kau dan mengadu. Aku tak peduli lagi dgn baran kau. Aku hanya akan kata GOODBYE!!!




HAHA.



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Saturday, December 5, 2009

Mentally disturbed.




Yeahh. Laugh people. Laugh while you still can. Asek control cun je kang fake sangat plakk enn.
p/s: Told ya. I'm transparent.
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NSTP

Pagi tadi aku ada NSTP. For those yang taktau wth is NSTP, it is actually a group discussion about current issues. Macam tadi, company NSTP nak buat satu sisipan baru kat Berita Harian specifically for teenagers/students. So dey all nak pendapat and pandangan kitorang lah. Dey all tny lah apa yang kitroang selalu baca, what issues that attracts student to read and all that. Mostly its all educational stuff lah. There were two division. The IPTAs students and IPTSs students. So mine was the IPTAs. Ada dua orang student UIA including me. But yang pakai tudung nya sorang je. HAHA. Aku malas haa nak pakai. Bukan taknak jaga nama baik UIA tapi aku malas nak berhipokrit. Sorry lah UIA membusuk enn nama korang haa. Yang lain ada from UiTM Melaka, UM, UUM, and UNIMAP. Ada yang amek course MASCOM, law, account, and etc. Btw, it was fun. My groupmates sume baik baik and friendly. I'm the second youngest there. Paling tua 23,22,20,19 and 18. Yang best nya, kitorang dibayar! Hehe. At the end of the session, each of us dapat rm120! Hhehe. Best best. Pasni nak join tarian 1Malaysia dorang plakk. Hehe. Can't wait! Here are some photos of my today's event.





Syasya and Mimi. Dorang ni twins! Tapi macam tak langsung enn? Yang pakai tudung tu Mimi, studying at UIA Gombak, course Law. Yang twins dia kat UiTM Melaka amek MASCOM. At first masa dorang cakap dorang twins I thought they were kidding. Aku tak take serious sgt laa en sbb kang orang cakap aku ni lurus plak enn. Sekali mmg betol daa! HAHA. Sweet en Syasya? Suke tgk dia. Hehe.


Asmirah, Syasya and Mimi.




Hafizah And k.Raihanah. Sangat petah bercakap K.rai. I like her red belt! :)


This is me and ???? Shit I forgot her name!!! Sorry.


After lunch, we continue our discussion.


Lunch kitorang pizza. Ada 4 jenis. Ni je yang tinggal. Yang lain dah habis kami lantak!! Lapar ouhh! HAHA.


This is K.chaq. Our fasilitator. Sporting ouhh K.chaq ni. hehe.

My groupmates. Supposely ada 10 orang but then 3 orang couldn't make it. So ada 7 students je with K.chaq in the middle. Haha.
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