ana uhib buka :)

My whole life, I never text with anybody from the moment I wake up til the moment I go to bed. Yes I am a person who likes to constantly texting but not up to this point ! Even there is nothing to talk about, we still keep on texting. And the best part is that, I never stop laughing for each text. I like it when someone let me feel like a kid again. I like it this way. Atleast, I won't feel like to meroyan whenever my friends are not around. Cause I have a buddy who is there for me. And for that, ana uhib buka :)

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M K A.

He was there yesterday. I didn't expect it at all but I hoped I reacted the way I should. He was on his way back when he came to see me. He was with another girl. I was calm though it hurts. We talked. I can't quite remember what we talked about. But I'm sure he was sorry for everything. And he said kita buat macam biasa, kita jadi macam mula-mula dulu. So I said now you are like a big brother to me, and I'm like a lil sister to you okayyy, like before. I forced a smile on my face while saying that.

The saddest part is when I had to take off your ring that I have been wearing since you gave it to me and gave it back to you. Also when we hug for the last time. You hug me so damn tight..reminds me back to where we start. Back to 4 months ago. I will never forget your touch. Thanks for 3 wonderful months. Though its only for a while, I had a great time and was happy with you.

For the last time, I love you MKA.

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itulah sayang

Tanya sama hati apa asal sayang.

Adakah tandanya nampak dipandang.

Kumbang rayu bunga bulan dan bintangnya

Punya tanda-tanda hubungan mesra.

Tanya sama hati pernahkah merindu

Ingat masa lena apa mimpi mu

Masa berjauhan apa nan dikenang

Bila difahamkan itulah sayang.

Suka suka suka lirik ni ! Tersirat habissss ! :)

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they say i've gone mad...

Danial Nazreen Anuar. Aku baca komen kau kat chatbox, buat aku rasa tertampar. Kau tau aku lemah kat mana kan. Dulu aku tinggalkan kau pun sbb Apa. Tapi thanks kau tak benci aku. Sorry aku buat kau mcm tu dulu. Aku pernah ckp kat kau, semua orang pun tahu, dengan siapa pun aku, endingnya aku mesti dgn Apa balik. Sekarang dah tak mcm tu. Kalau lah blh mcm tu lagi...hmm..aku taknak buat Apa sakit lg dah. Banyak kali aku amek buang dia. Apa bukan bola yg boleh ditendang tarik. Thanks btw...dengan 3 ayat simple kau tu, buat aku rasa tersedar sikit. Aku dah tak kuat mcm dulu lg cakk.. ramai tanya aku mana Phye yang hardcore dulu.

Honestly, I also dont know where the hell is that bitch now.

Aku proud dgn kau. Masalah tak habis2 timbul dalam life kau. Bala sebesar mana yg tak pernah timpa kau ? But you never give up fighting. You always bounce back. Even kdg2 kau rasa down, but you will always find a way to move on. How I wish I have the strength like yours. Keep being strong yea cakk. Its the only thing I know about you and I'm so proud with it. And thanks for being there when I need you.

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" mencintai tak semestinya memiliki "

Bila fikir kau pukul aku,

Bila fikir kau pernah curang,

Bila fikir hari hari kena maki,

Bila fikir kau kasar dengan aku,

Bila fikir kau tidak adil,

Bila fikir gila kuasa kau,

Bila fikir ego taknak kalah kau,

Aku jadi benci. Aku jadi marah. Aku jadi kuat.

Tapi....

Bila teringat mata kau,

Bila dengar Love The Way You Lie, Callin U, Yakinlah Aku Menjemputmu dan 150juta,

Bila fikir perhatian kau beri,

Bila fikir manja kau kalah bayi,

Bila fikir pengorbanan kau,

Bila fikir arifnya kau ttg aku,

Bila melihat album kita,

Bila diselubungi comforter kau ketika tidur,

Bila terlihat kereta satria biru dimana-mana,

Bila terdengar Zafran panggil Paksu,

Bila ternampak vespa buruk di tepi jalan,

Bila terbayang pelukan kau disisi,

Bila teringat kucupan mesra kau,

Bila terlalu di Tmn Len Sen dan Bangi,

Bila bersiar-siar di pantai PD,

Bila terlihat gmbr kau di dompet aku,

Bila teringat sakat kau yg buat aku gelak,

Aku menangis. Kenapa aku lepaskan satu-satunya yang terindah dalam hidup aku ? Kalau lah aku tak dikaburi nafsu, mungkin aku masih bersama kau. Tak guna menyesal. Aku redha ketentuanNya. Kalau bukan kerana keluarga dah tak suka, aku sanggup sujud cium kaki kau asal kau kembali. Tapi Tuhan ada rancangan lain utk kita. Dia takkan bg dugaan kalau kita tak blh hadapinya... Aku masih sayang kau, cinta mati aku.... Si Azfar..

p/s: Aku tak blh jumpa jahat kau lg byk dr baik kau....

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