I am not "Mando Daio".

I am not "Mando Daio". Don't treat me as if I am. I don't give a shit about anything anymore. Honesty is all I want. You and I..we are not friends. We are not enemies. We are nothing.

Kau boleh jadi jaguh perawan yang handal, aku tak kesah. Kiri kanan depan belakang keliling pinggang siang malam kau nak berpojen dengan awek awek yang kau anggap mudah untuk kau dapat sumpah aku tak ambil pusing lagi. Aku tak peduli. You are the least of my problems. Tapi kalau kau anggap aku antara awek awek sekalian, kau salah. Aku dan kau tiada apa ikatan. Jangan layan aku macam kita ada apa apa.


Dengan "Mando Daio" kau boleh tipu cakap kau dengan family tak boleh contact padahal terang terangan kau dengan aku sedang bermanja beramah mesra beromen romen. Aku boleh jadi teman subahat kau. Tapi kalau kau jadikan aku macam "Mando Daio", jangan kau pikir aku takkan tahu. Sebab aku tak bodoh macam "Mando Daio" kau. Aku Nancy Drew kau yang dulu kau tinggalkan cause you are just a stupid idiot who can't keep up with me. Tapi takpe. Sebab kau buat aku rasa disayangi, aku pejam sebelah mata. Tapi dalam diam, aku sedang memerhatikan dengan dua dua belah mata.


"Mando Daio"...kesian aku tengok kau. Takpe. Kalau kau rasa worth it, stay jelah. Kalau kau rasa ak, baek kau blahh je. Kalau bukan sebab aku terikat, dah lama aku angkat kaki pergi membawa diri jauh jauh.

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Sylvia Path.

I feel so fucked up. Stress!! Final is in two weeks. Tons of assignments. Everyweek ada je activity yang compulsory. I hate it when it includes marks for finals. I am depressed.


Sylvia Path. One the world's most famous poet. Killed herself out of depression. She attempted thrice. And succeeded on the third. She puts her head in the oven and baam!! She took out her life just like that. Scary and painful. If I want to commit suicide, I'll definitely do it in a less painful way. Much less.


But my life is no where any less pain. Okay. It's the hormones talking again I guess.


AGD (Annual Grand Dinner) is on this Thursday. Many said I'm very excited about it cause it's kinda my thing. Well you guys, AGD in UIA..is definitely not my thing. Not in UIA. Wearing gowns and dresses with tudung..is totally not my thing. Not that I disgust wearing tudung. I'll be twice as hot as I was when I wasn't wearing any of course. :)) The thing is..if the theme for AGD is not as same as the theme for my prom last two years..I don't think I'll be going after all. But dah alang2 I already have the dress and the masquerade, pegi jelah.


-sigh-...bosan. What a pathetic life. I need some entertainment. You guys..jom pegi D-G-1?? Bwahaha.


p/s: Hidup mesti perasan.

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knock knock.

Hey you. I just saw tag photos of you and your girlfriend. Sweet. Hope you guys last long and happily together kay? You are the sweetest guy I've ever known my entire life. Stay that way. It's your charm. :))



p/s: Never deny anything to please others.

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Japanese hunk of my dream.

5 words to start this post. .. TAKIYA GENJI...I LOVE YOU!!!

I'm usually not a big fan of Asian movies but I like watching Yakuza type of action movies. Like seriously. I like the violence. Memang sumpah cair laa enn. Brother2 cani lahh gua nak!! Gaya ada, tumbuk pun sedap, muke pun comel. Dapat sekor cani hidup kena buru pun tak kesah haa. BWAHAHA.

I just finished watching Crows Zero 2. Dulu masa yang first punya, macam suka tgk Serizawa enn. But then tetiba yang second punya cam Genji plak yang memikat hati haa. HAHA!! I love love love love love love TAKIYA GENJI!! Bukan Oguri Shun ea? I prefer fantasy than reality.

p/s: I always have this thing for Japanese guys. I wonder when I can actually have one. Hmm..

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High school are soo not over for me.

I thought I've passed my high school year way back then. The year where I'm all uptight with stupid school rules. The year where I have to sneak my handphone to class. The year where I have to wear kain dalam to school. The year where I'll get punished for not doing my homework. The year where I have to run rounds of school hockey field for failing addmaths. The year where I have to always be scared of spotchecks. The year where I can't sleep well knowing that there'll be a spotcheck at 2am. The year where everything happens only during HIGH SCHOOL!! I thought I've already been there, done that. I was wrong!







I guess I am still in high school. STUPID ISLAMIC HIGH SCHOOL!







UIA owed MPN RM32k. Yelah dah dok guna for exams and for the boys to play futsal every day. Dengan cost kerosakan semua sekali, UIA have to pay them RM32k. And the students are the ones who have to pay the price!!! Mega spotcheck for the whole week!! Like WTF?? I was in my BMW class when suddenly ada 2 org ustazah entered and ada spotcheck katanye. I was freaking out lah enn cause I have my cigarette in my bag. Takut kantoi kang mati plak aku kena jawab sape punya. Nasib baiklah spotcheck dress code je. I did not wear anak tudung,kain dalam. But I passed all that except for my shoes!!!BABI! Aku kena saman because ustazah said my shoes were too fancy!!! WTF?? Tak make sense langsung!! So what if my shoes are too fancy??? Itu ke kau nak saman aku?? Tak masuk akal tau tak??? Asal kau jeles kasut aku lawa sgt and yours are like bundle shoes???? Eyh c'mon lah!! Kasut aku kaler gelap okay?? And bertutup penuh!! Just sikit ada lubang2 je. Boleh plakk die cakap cani.."ouh kasut awak tak boleh ni. Too fancy!! Awak nak pergi mane pakai kasut fancy?? Nak pergi kelas je bukan nak gi mana2 pon"...WTF??? Itu lah kasut nak ke kelas aku pandai!!! Is it my fault that it's too fancy??? Urgh! Susah jadi orang hot ni...oopps! bwahaha.







UIA dah makin menggila skrg. Melampau. Sampai ke handphone sume die nak check!! Hello?? Handphones are our privacy okay?? Even parents aku pon tak penah nak sibuk2 check, ape hak korang nak check2 handphone orang??? Even polis nak check pon kena ada waran okay?? Kau orang suka suka hati nak check tak tentu pasal!! (Tak pasal aku delete sume porns tau??) Teddy bear kena rampas, make ups and perfumes pon kena amek, kasut ada bunga2 pon kena. OMG!! Memang gila desperate syiall!! Tolonglah. There are many other ways boleh cari utk settle en saman. Ni korang makan duet student tak malu ke? Kesian lah sikit. Not all of us are fortunate. Those yang kena saman sampai RM300 tu cane dorang nak bayar? Dah lah sekali saman RM50. Tak boleh appeal mintak kurang plakk tu. Considerate sikit boleh?? Takde sivik langsung!!







Sorry lah UIA. Bukan aku nak memalukan korang. It's just that...you guys are too much.









Mengucap panjang Phye. -sigh-







I guess..I will never be able to leave my "high school" years..

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The ugly duckling.

Kenapa dalam 3G phone aku nampak sgt kurus dan cengkung padahal in reality aku gemokkk???? Aku nak yang ini boleh? Bukan tak bersyukur dengan diri sendiri tapi kalau dapat yang ini pun hati dah cukup suka. :))

p/s: Takpe. Aku tetap hot. HAHA.

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Angel from heaven.

Boo. We are almost a year now. It's my biggest achievement in relationship so far. And I'm proud of myself. And of you too. I was the hardest chick you've ever met. The toughest one to handle. And the most gedik one too I guess. But you stand by me. All the time. You never leave me though I throw you to the farthest land. You keep to your promises. Your words aren't just sweet words. You mean them and you have proved them to me.When you did something wrong, you'll make it up to me. When I'm angry, you calm me down. When I hit you, you let me. I am the luckiest girl on earth to have you in my life. You love me so much. I know. And the feelings are mutual. I love you too. And boo..I'd kill for you.

p/s: Kasih sayang berbelah bahagi? I know I don't have to worry.

bee.