Tiga bulan menanggung derita. Balasan untuk ku.

I am at the point where most probably I won't be going out having FUN for almost three damn months!! Three months of no going out late at nights. Three months of no clubbing!! Three months of no hanging out at Casa with Dyane. Three damn months where I am most probably going to be only a maid at home!! Damn. Ya Allah Ya Tuhanku, Kau izinkan lah aku untuk lulus dan dapat meneruskan short sem ku. AMIN.

p/s: hell awaits me.

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Char Kuey Tiaw Senawang satu??!!

Tengah tengah sedih dan kecewa nie, teringin Char Kuey Tiaw kat Senawang tue. Memang terbaek lahh. Lagi best dari kat pasar malam BTR tue. Telor separuh masak die...perghhh! Ade kerang dgn udang dan dan 3 ekor melengkapkan lagi selera si lapar buas dua ekor nie semalam. HAHA. Punyelah takot I potong. Tapi takk pon. Nak lagi ada lahh. Bawak lagi nanti. Terima kaseh.

p/s: I had fun spending 3 days with you. Thank you.

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Baru nak semangat for this sem. Tapi hancur harapan.

Just got back to UIA. Received a really bad damn news. Takde mood langsung nak buat pape. So, MAYBE I won't update my blog for a while. Until I solve some matters that really need my attention and focus. So..bye.

p/s: malu sangat dgn you sayang. Huh.

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K.qiela tag sebab yg first tu die tak tag. HUHU

1. Age of next day.

2. Place I like to visit.

Mauritius. Honeymoon nanti nak kat sini.

3. Favourite place. HAHA. A regular.


4. Favourite sports.

Bowling. Wakil okay. HAHA

Badminton. Wakil juga.

5. Favourite food.

Sushi!! Love Japanese food!

Almond from Big Apple. Yummy!!

White toblerone. Favourite of all time.

Lamb chop. A must!

Asam laksa

Indulgence!!!!

6. Favourite thing.

Handphone. Jantung nyawa.

Eye liner. Takde nie takde rupa orang owh.

Pengganti diari.

7. Nicknames I had.

Gloria. Thanks to K.Saidah and the gang. Huhu

Bumi. Thanks to Emon yg cakap Phye bulat macam Bumi.

Nickname mase dgn Bubu. Pastu lekat teross.

Nickname dgn si Dyane Hilton.

8. College major.

Bachelor of English. And it's not tessel people. BEN and tessel are different.

9. Name of my love.

Chicken si tonggek.

10. Hobby.

Shopping!!

Online. All the time.

Eat. 24/7!!

My passion.

11. Bad habit.

I snore like a pig when I laugh.

12. I wish. Edward Cullen is mine. :))

Rich.

Hot like Nicole Scherzinger.

13. People to tag.

Dyane.

Mcna.

Raden.

Sha.

Kemalasan haih.

Memandangkan semua orang malas nak update blog, saya pon nak join sekaki lahh. Huh.

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Jalan jalan beli kasut. Lari lari pergi merajuk.

Just got back from Seremban. Hanging out with Apa, Mazuk and Samah. We had cendol at near Rembau entrance. Dah lame Apa janji nak bawak. Baru hari nie terkota janji die tuh. I was hoping nak makan cendol pulut. Lame gile kott tak bantai benda tue. Datang datang jea tgk beratur mak aiih..panjang gile. So, beratur lahh..Then, bile sampai je our turn, sedap jea makcik tue gi tampal "HABIS" kat cendol pulut!! Babun. Penat aku beratur wehh!! Huh..takpela. Takde rezeki. ( Sayang..nanti bawak lagi boleh? Nak gakk cendol pulut) So..order jela cendl biasa. Apa cendol kacang. Mazuk cendol jagung and Samah cendol biase gakk. Not bad lahh. Takde lah sedap gile babun. Tapi okay lahh.


Then, drop Samah at his house, die nak gi PD, spent time ngan gf die before gi PLKN. So, kitorng move on to JJ Seremban. Where else?? Seremban ade ape jea? HAHA. Beli kasut untuk naek sem nie. Ade yang nak, takde size plak. Huh. Slalu camtu. Paleng benci shopping, mesti susah nak cari seluar and kasut. Cause takde my size!! Geram. Grrr....atlast, nak tak nak, terpakse lahh beli kasut yg tak bape nak lawa, tapi selesa lahh,, sbb tu jea yg ade size 40. Hahaha.


Gerak gi City Park, makan makan. Ish. Potong betol. Nak mee goreng basah cam hari tu. Tp maybe the cook this time owg laen, so rase sgt lahh frustrating. Lagi frustrating, ade adegan lari bermeter LAGI!! Sian Mazuk kena gie jempot. Bukan die yg nak gie. HUH. Dalam kete, first time Apa tgk I menjerit gile babi. Hurm..sorry sayang. Didn't mean to scare you.


Dah lah. Penat nak cite lagi. Kena tido awal. Sok nak kena jage Zafran. Mak cik Siti gie hantar anak die PLKN. Bye.

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I curang kat you dengan dia ini lahh. HAHA

Edward Cullen is eternitally Phye's. Enough said. Siapa tak tahu lagi boyfriend dalam mimpi aku nie memang tak tahu lahh nak cakap ape lagi. Duduk zaman batu kah?? HAHA. Okay. For all Edward Cullen's fan, back off!! He's mine. HAHA

p/s: Ini lah lelaki yg I cakap I curang kat you tu. HAHAHA.

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Bloody hell. Go away. Let me move on!!

GO AWAY!!! PLEASE!!! I DON'T APPRECIATE YOUR PRESENCE NOW!!

I'm happy now. I'm happy without you. I've moved on. Please go away. You're haunting me.

Please. You're making me weak. I don't need you. I don't want you.

Please. I'm begging you to go away. Far from me.

Not even a shadow of you please. I can't live with it.

Not even a ghost of you. I'm loosing my mind.

No more tears. No more pain.

Please. Go away. Let me live.

I'm dying with you lingering around.

I'm moving on. Please let me move on.

Past...stop haunting me. I have no regrets.

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Melekat je kerr? Bukan. Lovey doveyy lahh.

"Qiela: Heish..geram tengok korang ni tau. Asyik melekat je. Nak berdua je."

Huhu. Orang kate kami melekat. Orang kate kami nak duduk berdua je. Ada jugak orang kate kami sweet couple. Huhu. Yekew sayang??

Memang if kemane mane pon, Apa mesti ada kat sebelah. If konvoi kereta pon, we must be in the same car. If tengah bersiap or pape pon, Apa must be in the room. If duduk nak tunggu ape ape pon, mesti duduk same same. Setiap lima minit, mesti nak kiss. Before nak gi mane mane, andai kate pompuan kena masok dalam dulu, before gerak, mesti nak pelok and kiss dahulu. Before tidur, mesti kena call dulu walau takde kredit.

Bila itu terjadi, orang gelar ape? Melekat? Sweet? Rimas?

Walau ape pon tanggapan orang, to me, kitorang macam itu sebab kitorang sgt lovey doveyy! Huhu. I tak rimas. I suke sgt sgt. Terase diri amat disayangi. Ade beranggap, (nak point Dyane)
kitorang mcm tu mule mule jea. Lame lame nnt tak mcm tu dah. Well, kitorang tak kesah ape orang mahu kate. Kitorang just go with the flow. And memang the fact is, kitorang sgt lovey doveyy. That is undeniable. Huhu


p/s: Tapi akan rimas if di overprotected. Hope tak sampai macam tu.

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I want to but I can't. I'm not well.

Not feeling very well. I woke up around almost 6 p.m just now. Couldn't get my ass off the bed. My body temperature is rising. I'm having a fever. Starting to have one. The meds my father gave me yesterday is not working at all. But my coughs have slow down a bit. Aduhh. Tak suke demam!! Baru planning mahu jumpe Apa esok. But with my condition like this, I think memang tak dapat pergi lah. Aduhaii.


p/s: Everybody is going to MOS this Thurs. I'm just not in the mood. And I'm not well. Sorry you guys.

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Bagai lembu ditarik hidung nya.

Tahu tak rupa lembu or kerbau yang kena pakai subang kat hidung die yang besar tue? I can't remember the simpulan bahasa for it tapi I know memang ade satu tue yang portrays the lembu with subang kat hidung. Meaning of that simpulan bahasa is bile the tuan tarek subang tu, baru lah itu lembu nak jalan. Kire macam, kalau tak disuruh, takkan jalan lahh kerja.

Well, let me tell you something, I hate this kind of person!!! Dah perli, dah sound, dah bg hint, tak paham paham gakk!! Benda dah cakap awal awal, dah pesan. Tapi tak jalan jalan gakk. Bile something happen baru nak jalan. Baru terkedek kedek nak buat. Pastu bile bising, kena leter, put all the blame on me. Cakap I don't understand you, cakap tak penah nak ikot ape die suruh. WHAT THE HELL lahh weh??? Benda aku dah warning awal awal. Tapi tangguh lah. Pastu gie backing orang laen!! Bile bnd jadi laen, aku bising, cakap aku bodoh bodohkan plak. Apehal??
It's like I'm stuck tahu?? Either way pon, aku yang kena balek. I'm freaking tired macam nie. Kenape tak boleh nak jalan TANPA diberitahu?? Susah sangat ker?? Is it too much that I'm asking for?? Bukan aku suruh gie bunuh orang pon. I think I've given you the easiest task a man can ever do. Tu pon susah nak jalan ker?? Tak paham.


p/s: This is what I learn in Linguistic. Men and women can never understand each other. They have different style of language and communication that can never get along. May God have mercy on us.

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Selera makan mengganas kembali. Sudah sober nie. Huhu

Memang patut betol. I slept around 6.30 this morning. Couldn't sleep at first. Woke up around 10, pergi ke kedai ikot Umi beli barang. Kemudian balek teross sambung tido. Then bangun bangun my sis uruh jage si kucing gemokk tu jap. Die mahu berurut while others sume kuar. Cilake. Mamai lagi wehh! Nak ahje bagi kat K.ina. Tapi tgk die tgh iron baju keje ayah, tidak sampai hajat. Huhu. turun lahh bawah jage ini budak. Adoyh. Macam macam pulak songeh die. Atlast bagi je kat K.ina.


Yang best nye, dah kenyang balun sume roti bakar, baru lah K.Ina nak habaq yang umi beli kan pulut for me pagi tadi. Adoyhai. Nak tak nak, balun jela pulut tu sekali. Kate favourite en. Huhu. Tatau lahh ape planning for today. Cam bosan jer. Can't wait nak naek sem!!!

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What I see is what I get. I'm so lucky I guess.

He has shown me his true colours. Have I shown mine??

I like his style. He is who he is.

What you see is what you get.

He's real. No faking no acting.

He won't change himself for you.

But he can do things just for you.

He's simple. Hate complicated.

So blurr at times. Just be straight forward and honest.

Unfriendly, no doubt. It's obvious.

But he's a nice guy. Not gentleman though.

Ambitious but little effort to it. Still, he's trying.

Conscious and aware.

Unpleasantly attractive. And seductive.

Secretly romantic. In his own way.

Trustable, so far.

In a funny way, He's so messed up.

Love him in shirts. Love him cause he's mine!!

I love him unconditionally.

Don't ever change. I love you the way you are.

p/s: Will continue more later..

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Holiday seems cool. But without you? No thanks.

My parents were supposed to buy me a new lappy today as they promised. But due to hujan ribut petang tadi, and traffic jam yg keterlampauan, my dad patah balik umah. I was sleeping back at home at that time. Bangun bangun around 10 something, hoping dah ade itu lappy. Tapi hancur harapan when Ma told me that Pa had to patah balek due to the traffic. I really hope esok ayah mahu pergi balik. He said he has a lot of work to do. Tadi pon he went to bed at 2 am menghabiskan paper work die. Urghh. I'm so glad I'm not a lawyer. Menjadi anak seorang lawyer buruk ini pon dah merana mata dan bahu memandang dan memikul. Huhu.


Another sad news for me, my mom confirm pegi London next month. Yelahh. Air Asia kann ade wat promotion ape benda entah. So she's grabbing the opportunity to have a vacation with her sister, my Mak Long. But Mak long pergi awal sikit. My Dad tak join as he has a lot of court cases, like usual lahh kan. My Along and her husband tak confirm pergi ke tak. Konon nye mereka mahu ke Bali dahulu. Wah wah wah. Melampau betol mereka ini. Mentang mentang dapat bonus, sakan mereka berbelanja yeh?? Takpe Phye. Sabar.. Your time will come. Kann sayang? Huhu.


My mom said sorry to me as she can't bring me cause tengah sem kann. But she promised that she will bring me out station during my 3 months holiday. Nevermind lahh mom. Tak kempunan pon mahu gi London. Mane mane kita gi pon, diri atas bumi gakk. Lagi pon, Umi nak gi 2minggu. Two weeks of no news, no seeing Apa?? Hell no. Terima kaseh banyak banyak. Mahu aku demam kepialu kat sana kang. Huhu. Tapi agak sedih lah gakk tak dapat pergi. But it's okay. You go ahead mom. As long as you bring home some Burberry for me, your apology is accepted. Huhu.


p/s: Mahu ke Mauritius for honeymoon!!

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Technologies. Manipulates the creative minds.

Adoyh. It's too obvious. Technologies are taking control of the generations today. Zafran bile besar nak jadi ape? Huhu

p/s: Uncle Apa panggel Zafran "kucing gemokk". Huhu.

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Dyane cemburu. huhu

Dyane nie bising lahh. Dyane, aku takde benda menarek nak diceritakan sekarang. Dudok umah jadi bibik je kott. Ape jea yg boleh bebel? Bangun tido, kemas rumah, masak, online, tu jelah keje seharian aku kat umah. HAHAHA. Nanti adde story best kott. HAHAHA.



p/s: Nak in love pon susah. Jaki betol kau. HAHA

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Rindukaulahbodoh!!

I miss my daddy ngong!! Miss him. Can't wait to see you again. Muahhxxxx14!!

I miss spending time with you.

I miss hugging you.

I miss kissing you.

I miss staring at you.

I miss looking into your steamy eyes.

I miss poking fun with you.

I miss membahan orang with you.

I miss laughing with you.

I miss EVERYTHING about you!!

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Me myself and I. It's all I got.

I'm a lady full of shits and secrets. I'm not a hypocrite though. I do what I wanna do and I think what I wanna think. Just sometimes what we did, is best kept to ourselves. Not everybody can accept who we are. And for those who don't and can't accept me, it's your lost. Huhu. I 'm just living up my life.

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Diet ape nie??

My boyfriend is soooo right. My diet wouldn't last a day. Baru jea hari nie makan sehari sekali, perot ni dah meragam nak makan. Sekarang tgh rendam ayam sbb nak buat maggi. Oh my freaking God! I can't help it. Seriously...tak suke period!! Makes me wanna eat like a giant!! Huh. Dah dah dah. Nak gi makan. Bye!


p/s: I break my promise to him. Sorry daddy. I promise I won't do it again and I'll make it up to you.

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In great pain. Hell.

I'm in hell of pain. Since yesterday I couldn't sleep. I was suffering from period pain. I couldn't get up from bed. Only now I can finally get up, take a shower, and thank God I felt a bit okay. Seriously. How I wish someone who knew how to take care of me when I'm having a period pain is here. That would be a lot easier for me. Herm..


Something is missing. I can feel something is missing. Something is not right. Adoyh. Is this the hormones talking or what? Whatever it is..I really hate this feeling. Huh.

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Bile dah kena sound, ape lagi? Jalan lahh..

Okay. Instead of nak berfeeling all mooshie mooshie about old stuff, it's better that I plan some new stuff. Just now, Apa made it clear that yes, he did want me to slim down a little bit. It's not that he mind I get a bit chubby ke ape. Maybe he was just too tired of listening to my shits and complaints about my body figure. I, myself is not satisfiy and confident with my figure, so surely he felt the same way too. And you know me, selagi takde orang sound about my weight, mmg melantak jela keje. So, since Apa dah cakap suruh kurus, then ni nak planning some diet lahh. Lets hope it's working. Cause if dekat umah nie, susah sikit nak berjaya. If kat college boleh lah. HAHAHA.


so, lets start...


Breakfast..(8am)
-large intake of food but those yang tidak berminyak shj.
-fresh juice. If takde just a plain water.

Lunch..(1pm)
- less rice, more to lauk. No meat. only fish and chicken. Take turn.
-sayuran.
- sume lauk amek yg less minyak, less santan.
-air..something yg bg energy.

Dinner..(7pm)
-something light and soupy.
-minum susu for my bones yg maken rapuh ini. sebab ape? hanye mereka saje tahu. HAHA


Ini planning bile ade kat college. Cause if kat umah, bangun pon pukol 2 3 petang!! Bangun teros kemas umah, masak and breakfast+lunch+dinner= brunchner. HAHA. Lagi bgos ea? Makan sehari sekali. Macam dulu dulu. HAHA. All the best.

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Let me go. Don't come back. Or please do.

I hate this feeling. This pain is killing me.

I can't bare it anymore.

Was I blind? Was I wrong?

Then how come it felt right at first?

How come I don't feel guilty at all?

I thought I've moved on. Did I?

I don't wanna be a joke.

My life is not a joke.

I did the right thing. In a wrong way.

I know I did the right thing.

I'm letting go of my past.

Help me to let it go.

Don't come haunting me.

I don't appreciate your presence.

I'm sorry I hurt you.

I'm sorry I caused too much pain.

I'm dying inside too.

Please forgive me. Don't curse me.

There was just too much memories to keep.

I'm loosing control. But I'm holding on.

Let me go like how I let you go.

Don't come back. Or please do.

I don't know.

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Happy birthday Sayangku Gileh.

11th March is Qiela's a.k.a Sayangku Gileh's birthday. I met this girl through Yad, on the same day I know him and Apa who is now my boyfriend. Memang becok ini minah. Tapi sangat fun. The first time I met her I already liked her. I knew she must be a really fun girl. And I was right. Qiela ni sangat protective. Menjaga kawan kawan die. And die jenis buat hal sendiri, tak amek port sal hal orang lain. Janji die and kawan kawan die happy. That's what I like about her. Huhu.

Qiela,

Happy birthday girl. May all your wish come true. Saaayang you.

Sister 13?? Haha.

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HAPPY FRIENDSHIP DAY. 10.3

HAHAHAHA. Three of my best pal called me just now. Straight. First TeE, then Anese and last Dyane. Entah ape kejadah nye sume pon nak call. Wanted syiall. HAHAHA.


Oh btw...



HAPPY FRIENDSHIP DAY PEOPLE!!!!!


Phye sayang sangat sangat kat semua orang. Tujuh beradek, STF friends and all my new friends. Friendship is beautiful but fragile. So keep it clean, nice and fun.

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Two V.V.I.Ps in my life. (else than family)

The bestfriend.
Nur Diyana Fariha binti Arshad.


The boyfriend
Azfar Zahin bin Amzah

I guess by looking at Dyane's pic, everybody knows who I am. Haha. But very few know who's my boyfriend. Well, there he is. Azfar Zahin Amzah. We're still new. I love him so much. I love my BFF so much. Both are my heartbeat. Without them, I'm nothing. Love you guys. Muahxx14

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Cruel intentions of mind. body and soul.

Cruel intentions of mind, body and soul. This is my new blog title. God!This is my third blog so far. Can't keep one safely. The old one was just full of my shits. So, I'm going to try something new. Something clean. Like my bestfriend always said, there are things best kept to oursleves. Or something like that. Can't really remember her exact words. But my boyfriend said it's going to be boring then when everything I write are only the nice things I did. Meaning no skeletons in the closet to be revealed. Well, let's see about that.

The truth is, I'm just freaking tired of having to change my blog or having to keep myself low. Why can't I just be myself freely? So what if it's wild? It's my life. People care, yeah I understand that. Give me your lectures and if I don't listen to it, then it's up to me. You've done your part, thank you and now it's my turn to live my own life. I'm not stupid. I know what's right and whats' wrong. Huh.

Whatever. I'll try to keep everything clean and readable at any age and gender. HAHA. Just one thing, all those who are just too noisy too mind other people's business, I would want to suggest to you to get a life. Stop bugging other people's life. Especially my life. Don't you have anything better to do? Please. Thank you

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